I must apologize for the lack of updates on here. Truth be told, Morgan and I have had a busy couple of weeks. I have been traveling a lot to various shows and working on a TV show that I’m also a producer on. Plus I made a trip this week with my friend Jon to the MLB Home Run Derby and All-Star Game in Phoenix, AZ. So amazing. As for Morgan, she just recently got home from a trip to New York where her and her band mates were working on photos and videos for their upcoming album. The pictures look incredible. I have been lucky enough to get a sneak preview of some of the album and I cannot wait for the finished product. Anyways, enough excuses. Just an apology for a recent lack of updates. I’m sure this won’t be the last but we’re trying! It’s still new to us.
A friend of mine with whom I recently spent a day with gave me a critique on this blog. He said he really enjoys the thought out writings but wasn’t a fan of the “dome coach” conversation post. He said we are both very articulate but that post came off like a couple of teenagers giggling about sex. And I can totally see that. That is a very valid point. HOWEVER, to know Morgan and I and to know our friendship, we talk about some of the most ridiculous things and literally nothing is off the table. What I find most interesting is that we can take the most immature topics and spend a great deal of time on them, analyzing them and making well thought out statements which only serve to prolong the conversations and quite frequently turn into debates. I would be lying if I said that Morgan and I didn’t have an in depth conversation today about penis sizes. Now before I start to sound like the majority of our conversations are about such things, they are not. It just happens and also happens to bring the most hilarity when it does so they are the ones that will more than likely turn up on here.
Aside from all that, I don’t really know how “grown up” I am anyways. My days are filled with baseball, Disneyland and wrestling. Sometimes a combination of all three. I live the dream life of a 15 year old. My career is professional make believe. I think Morgan gets that about me which is why we can have serious conversations about asinine things. When Morgan wrote her introduction about me, she mentioned how childlike I can be. But I think it’s more than that. I think it’s a resistance to normalcy. A resistance to what is expected of me. It’s a stubbornness to live life on my own terms. Sometimes it makes me so happy and sometimes it makes me so sad. It is my character flaw and I will own it until the day that I die.
Woe is me, right? To those who had to be up at 5am this morning to sit in traffic to get to work and sit behind a desk all day can’t imagine what complaints I would have. And believe me, it’s not lost on me what I have. Or is it? I am thankful for the opportunities I am afforded with the lifestyle I have chosen, but to say things have come easy would be underselling just how much work I have put in to get here. It’s hard to believe that very many people can sympathize with all I have gained and all I have lost and the sacrifices I have made to get here. Nobody knows how many times I have failed and continue to fail just to have the smallest things go my way so I can continue to be who I am and not lose myself or get lost in the shuffle. To quote my favorite TV show, being Joey Ryan is a gift and a curse.
What is wrong with normalcy? Well, nothing is really. When your routine is the abnormal then you develop a longing for normalcy. The things others take for granted are the things you come to desire. My inability to carry on a meaningful relationship might not be too abnormal but for me it seems to be that of a lost cause. I’m notorious for dating younger but that is because of my character flaw. Morgan is the only girl I have found close to my age that I feel comfortable completely being myself around and yet we have exhausted the possibility of being together and have deemed it not in the cards for us. When I try to date women in my age range, I feel like the date becomes much like a job interview for a husband position. And I feel like I fail the interview the minute I tell them that I play fight in my underwear for a living. Or about my weekly trips to Disneyland. Or about my addiction to Major League Baseball. A problem that I don’t seem to find with 18 to 24 year olds. The problem there is that 18 to 24 year olds tend not to be too interested in settling down or starting something serious. Again, woe is me… The 30 + year old guy who is hooking up with 18 to 24 year olds. I understand I could have it a lot worse, but you can’t control what your heart longs for. Perhaps it’s simply a matter of the grass always being greener on the other side. Or perhaps my life is in the mold of a Shakespearian tragedy.
- Joey
There really is nothing wrong with staying a kid as long as you can. As silly as it sounds, I play dodgeball three times a week and I am very grateful I have this opportunity. I think you'd fit right in with all of us (15 or so leagues throughout LA/Long Beach!). Not only do we all have fun, but we also network and there's always someone to network with because we attract all kinds of different people. It's late-20-to-30-somethings all goofing around, going to bars afterwards and playing flip cup, and meeting new people. Every single one of us is fun, athletic, and silly, and can get down to "adult" business if we wanted to. Like you said, you are living the dream. I am almost sure that any of my friends (and I've made SO many from dodgeball), would kill for the opportunity to get paid to play. A life of "make believe" is pretty awesome. Doing what you love everyday, even if it's not normal, is something most people working their 9-5's envy, and for good reason.
ReplyDeleteAlso, most everyone that is a "catch" has or has had relationship issues, because it's hard to find a match that fits them. You need to find the right person for you by finding someone else resistant to normalcy. I've witnessed (for other people) that the most successful relationships are between two people that are in the same place in their lives at the same time. One of the most important things about dating is timing, as unfortunate as that sounds. You can find someone that is "perfect" for you on all accounts, but sometimes being in different places in your life really screws things up.
I dig this post. I barely know you since we met online like, forever ago & that is the extent of our friendship. (Not to mention the fact that u live a gazillion miles from me lol) Anthology, that doesn't prevent me from caring about you. :) of course I don't know Ms. Morgan from Eve, but may I ask why you said y'all have pretty much decided that it will never work out for y'all to be together? How do you know? It's obvious that the two of you are good friends. That is definitely a good start! Maybe you should just wait & see? IDK, but if it isn't meant for you to be with her then I know it is for you to be with someone else. I am the queen of shit-tastic relationships & horrible life decisions. Once I quit looking for Mr. Right is when he came along. He looked past all my flaws & personality quirks & just liked me for me. Your Mrs. Right will do the same for you & she'll love everything about you & your baseball, Disneyland & wrestling obsession! She may be 18more or 35, but it won't matter to you when
ReplyDeleteyou find her. Anyway I'm freakin rambling like
always, but I wanted to tell us to hang in there! (You & Ms. Morgan) The right person will come along when you least expect it & it will be freakin amazing. :) You both will be in my prayers for you to find true love & happiness!
Lmao obviously I didn't scan that comment for auto-correct failure. My bad! Apparently "anyhoo" isn't acceptable so it chose "anthology" instead. I guess next time I'll be less lazy & get out the laptop! ;)
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